15 3 / 2014

thirteenlittlewords said: I'd love to read Rysa's story! I always found her backstory one of the most interesting (and Kir's! but I know you've already started that) and I think it would be a wonderful story to real-publish :) I've done CampNaNo a few times (or at least started a project) and I love the flexibility of it (wordcount goals, choose-your-own-mixed-genre, nonfiction option) And it's rebel-friendly! Next month I'm doing a queer urban fantasy story and a short-ish nonfiction.

teromain:

thirteenlittlewords:

teromain:

thirteenlittlewords:

teromain:

thirteenlittlewords:

reblogging because tumblr why can’t you work the way people want you to

So I’ve never been in an active cabin. I always forget to do the cabin assignments in time so maybe the more active participants get their cabins assigned before I even do the settings… I never had any luck with that. It was just a few polite hi where are you from what is your novel about good luck kind of exchanges.

I’ve always done my NaNos mostly solo, but last November I tried participating in my regional community and it was so much of a pleasant surprise, I never expected it. I’m very socially awkward so that’s a small miracle there. I adored the word wars! 5 word wars = daily word goal when you feel unmotivated.

I’d say go for it and hope for the best!

UGH TUMBLR IS A SHITHOLE AND DELETED MY REPLY FUUUUUUUUU. And yeah, it won’t let you reply more than once to the same post, it just continually replaces your answer, but I can see all of them on my dash because Reasons? Tumblr is programmed like a drunk monkey did it.

I’m not very good at social interaction online either, especially regarding writing and being in a group about it - it always feels exactly like group projects at school, either I’m working the hardest to play with everyone or just getting ignored, it always feels like unequal effort and I get disappointed, especially since it’s so hard for me to be outgoing in the first place. I know a lot of people do NaNo for the community and interaction and getting support to finish, but since I’m capable of finishing that much writing on my own I just tend to do it alone.

I know exactly how you feel (I mean not exactly but yeah). I’m the same. That’s why it was so weird for me. After years of lurking I posted once to the main board. I clicked on the live chat and didn’t immediately close the window. A miracle in itself. (I sent an ask to you, another miracle :D)

I know you get super motivated on your own (and I love reading the result!) but personally I get easily discouraged.

BTW re: publishing  I don’t think you should give up on getting L&S “real-published”. LGBT lit will change in a few years. People will get tired of the coming out stories and the interest will shift to genre fiction. The already existing but niche market will widen. The usual coming out stories will stay obviously (because they are important), but the numbers will decrease.

I am the expert lurker, it’s literally like my first response to anything, I never consider interaction or talking with people right off. And then any time I try otherwise I get instantly reminded why I lurk! I just have really terrible luck. Which is why I always try to respond to everybody who sends me any kind of note or reply or ask or comment (I don’t always succeed, but I try!) because I really know how it feels to put yourself out there and get nothing back, and I really don’t want to make other people feel how I usually end up feeling. Also I do really like talking to people.

On the publishing front, I’m interested to see what happens with Captive Prince, since that’s a big fantasy story with gay people that’s getting real published, and it’ll be interesting to see the reaction  to a story like that. Maybe it’ll make the market more open to having stories that aren’t just “LGBT lit” but are actual stories with plots and intrigue and well-written but the characters are gay, but they aren’t shunted off to that “specialty” bookshelf. I still don’t think L&S is ever going to be a candidate for publishing though. Just because it’s too weird and frankly not the best.

i feeeel youuu

teromain:

I’m really glad there’s interest in her story! And it’s one of the few stories I’ve got that doesn’t seem ridiculous to try and publish. Except that it wouldn’t really have any romance, which is such a big seller apparently.

How do the cabins work for Camp Nano? It keeps wanting me to get a cabin assignment. Is it worth it to sign up with a bunch of randos - I mean does it actually add anything to the experience? I usually do regular NaNo super solo. Good luck on yours!

I do really like talking to people

this right there is my biggest struggle in online situations (I won’t call them interactions because I would need to be more involved than intensely lurking)

I called it LGBT lit because sadly the industry and society will need at least a decade till it gets to the point when we can have these stories alongside the mainstream straight ones and a few more till it won’t even matter (or at least I hope so… or I have more faith in the more democratic countries and it’s just wishful thinking)

You posted quite a few times how you feel about your writing and I should have responded every time but I think I only got around to send you a message once when you friend-locked something (maybe the first Tenebrism rewrite scene? I don’t remember) on your LJ. Or the HS AU snippets. (I’ve reread all of them a few times. I wanted to ask you a while now that will you post more of those?)

So confession time! I follow your writing for a little more than 3 years now. So I’m a big time fan of yours actually. When I was first reading L&S I made a big txt file because I wanted to post a big review. Sorry about never posting it.

I found it a few months ago. If I was braver I would send you the file filled with awkward and really enthusiastic comments and guesses about the future plot because I was in-between books and guesses about what certain Isji words meant (occasionally I was right) and all the typos and grammar mistakes because I was reading it 1-3 am and I’m not one of those superhumans who can speak their second language with perfect grammar after midnight. But now that I’m thinking about it it couldn’t be much more embarrassing than this response so maybe in a few years I’ll send it.

Anyway I’m an art theory grad student (aesthetics actually) and I work with YA lit, genre fiction, and animation. So there are moments when I don’t feel too incompetent to say I have some kind of IDK not qualifications but something along the line to actually grasp what is good and what is not in a more professional way. And please trust me a little on this when I say you are a very talented writer. You are insightful, extremely good at worldbuilding and have a great style. Your characters always feel like people, every one of them. Also, you made me do something I’ve only done a few times: you made me check whether Alan and Keyd stay together. I’m one of those people who hate spoilers and not willing to spoil themselves never ever and I just needed to know that they will be alright.

OMG this is embarrassing but I think maybe you need to see this so I’ll just hit the reblog button and hope for the best

Yeah I just really hate the term LGBT lit because the entire section is endless depressing stories about the worst love story that ended terribly or someone’s dead tragic lover or how IT’S SO REALISTIC THAT THEY DIDN’T END UP TOGETHER and it’s just acres of downer “realistic” stories that take one element of a character and blow it up so that they’re not really a person, they’re just gay (and never happy). Which are not the stories I want to read (or write), I just want people doing cool things in cool situations and cool worlds and making friends and maybe falling in love but also they’re gay. That’s generally not in LGBT lit. I understand the urge to sort of slap that category onto a story that’s in another genre as well, like fantasy, to be like ‘OH HEY THIS KIND OF STUFF IS IN HERE TOO, IF YOU’RE LOOKING FOR IT!’ but it always ends up being the singular thing it’s defined by rather than just one aspect. When you crack open a SFF book, for instance, nobody’s going to be surprised if a big heterosexual relationship is part of it, and nobody warns for it or categorizes the book around that. It should be able to be the same if a homosexual relationship was part of a book, without it automatically being ‘THAT LGBT LIT BOOK that maybe has fantasy or something in it’. I do hope we can get a less narrow view of the idea, eventually.

Ahh, thank you! I know I’m really insecure about my writing and I try not to broadcast that everywhere (probably don’t succeed very well) and hold myself to way higher standards than I should so I’m literally never pleased with anything I do. But I’m really glad you like everything. And I love awkward and enthusiastic comments, that’s pretty much what I end up doing when I manage to initiate talking with someone, so if you ever want to send one don’t worry, I will probably like it very much! And readers’ opinions, even especially people who aren’t ‘professional’, are generally the most useful - after all, most people who read aren’t doing so from a professional angle, but they’re what make books successful.

I have plans to finish the HS AU as a series contained in one novel, and publish it for very very cheap (or free) on smashwords or something similar. So I probably won’t be posting anymore bits of it but it’s about 75% written. :)

I’m not one of those superhumans who can speak their second language with perfect grammar after midnight.

Is English your second language? I’m impressed!

I despise the Bury Your Gays trope so much and I never understand why is it still in practice. Especially when gay writers do it. I mean WHY DO YOU KEEP TORTURING YOUR AUDIENCE. It always pains me to see posts like Look Look Lesbian Movies With A Happy Ending They Exist!! because WHYYYY.

This is basically what I’d like to read, cool and exiting stories about interesting characters doing cool stuff who are also gay. I write these kind of stories, both m/m and f/f, but never dream of publishing them unless I write them in English (I’m trying it in April!) and I’m queer myself so you can imagine my frustration.

But I’m still very envious because I live in a moderately homophobic country (thankfully we’re not Russia 2.0 because we’re EU members) and when we have gay characters we have some really homophobic bullshit (last year we had a “hit movie” in which the gay main character turns straight when he meets the right woman) or the Bury Your Gays trope and even then the storyline gets treated like it’s exotic and kinda bizarre. So I take the dead gay characters stories anytime over this bullshit.

I understand the insecurity in your own writing and being a perfectionist and I really respect you that you can keep your motivation. I always panic that I’m not good enough / I’ll never get this shit published because of the themes and always stop and never finish anything because I think why the hell do I write no one will read it and it’s crap and it doesn’t worth the effort. I think the “average” readers’ opinions are the most helpful, too! But I’m supposed to be a “professional” and my advisor would kill me if he knew I referred to myself as what I’ve written yesterday.

YAY HS AU! I think you mentioned it somewhere (on your LJ?) but I wasn’t sure where does it stand on your priority list. Will you keep the names?

Yep, I’m ESL. My third language is German, then Japanese. My undergrad minor was Finnish and I took two years of Estonian. (Never again. I was overjoyed when I graduated because if there’s one language that’s unlearnable, it’s Finnish. Or I guess you can learn it in more than a decade. Japanese seems so easy compared to Finnish, seriously.) I get by in Latin. Big lingophile here. So you can imagine how much I enjoyed guessing Isji grammar at my first reading and how much I enjoy your language posts. I actually guessed that you’re familiar with Japanese and Latin, it’s kind of obvious when you closely inspect Isji even without your helpful and amazing grammar posts :)

14 3 / 2014

thirteenlittlewords said: I'd love to read Rysa's story! I always found her backstory one of the most interesting (and Kir's! but I know you've already started that) and I think it would be a wonderful story to real-publish :) I've done CampNaNo a few times (or at least started a project) and I love the flexibility of it (wordcount goals, choose-your-own-mixed-genre, nonfiction option) And it's rebel-friendly! Next month I'm doing a queer urban fantasy story and a short-ish nonfiction.

teromain:

thirteenlittlewords:

teromain:

thirteenlittlewords:

reblogging because tumblr why can’t you work the way people want you to

So I’ve never been in an active cabin. I always forget to do the cabin assignments in time so maybe the more active participants get their cabins assigned before I even do the settings… I never had any luck with that. It was just a few polite hi where are you from what is your novel about good luck kind of exchanges.

I’ve always done my NaNos mostly solo, but last November I tried participating in my regional community and it was so much of a pleasant surprise, I never expected it. I’m very socially awkward so that’s a small miracle there. I adored the word wars! 5 word wars = daily word goal when you feel unmotivated.

I’d say go for it and hope for the best!

UGH TUMBLR IS A SHITHOLE AND DELETED MY REPLY FUUUUUUUUU. And yeah, it won’t let you reply more than once to the same post, it just continually replaces your answer, but I can see all of them on my dash because Reasons? Tumblr is programmed like a drunk monkey did it.

I’m not very good at social interaction online either, especially regarding writing and being in a group about it - it always feels exactly like group projects at school, either I’m working the hardest to play with everyone or just getting ignored, it always feels like unequal effort and I get disappointed, especially since it’s so hard for me to be outgoing in the first place. I know a lot of people do NaNo for the community and interaction and getting support to finish, but since I’m capable of finishing that much writing on my own I just tend to do it alone.

I know exactly how you feel (I mean not exactly but yeah). I’m the same. That’s why it was so weird for me. After years of lurking I posted once to the main board. I clicked on the live chat and didn’t immediately close the window. A miracle in itself. (I sent an ask to you, another miracle :D)

I know you get super motivated on your own (and I love reading the result!) but personally I get easily discouraged.

BTW re: publishing  I don’t think you should give up on getting L&S “real-published”. LGBT lit will change in a few years. People will get tired of the coming out stories and the interest will shift to genre fiction. The already existing but niche market will widen. The usual coming out stories will stay obviously (because they are important), but the numbers will decrease.

I am the expert lurker, it’s literally like my first response to anything, I never consider interaction or talking with people right off. And then any time I try otherwise I get instantly reminded why I lurk! I just have really terrible luck. Which is why I always try to respond to everybody who sends me any kind of note or reply or ask or comment (I don’t always succeed, but I try!) because I really know how it feels to put yourself out there and get nothing back, and I really don’t want to make other people feel how I usually end up feeling. Also I do really like talking to people.

On the publishing front, I’m interested to see what happens with Captive Prince, since that’s a big fantasy story with gay people that’s getting real published, and it’ll be interesting to see the reaction  to a story like that. Maybe it’ll make the market more open to having stories that aren’t just “LGBT lit” but are actual stories with plots and intrigue and well-written but the characters are gay, but they aren’t shunted off to that “specialty” bookshelf. I still don’t think L&S is ever going to be a candidate for publishing though. Just because it’s too weird and frankly not the best.

i feeeel youuu

teromain:

I’m really glad there’s interest in her story! And it’s one of the few stories I’ve got that doesn’t seem ridiculous to try and publish. Except that it wouldn’t really have any romance, which is such a big seller apparently.

How do the cabins work for Camp Nano? It keeps wanting me to get a cabin assignment. Is it worth it to sign up with a bunch of randos - I mean does it actually add anything to the experience? I usually do regular NaNo super solo. Good luck on yours!

I do really like talking to people

this right there is my biggest struggle in online situations (I won’t call them interactions because I would need to be more involved than intensely lurking)

I called it LGBT lit because sadly the industry and society will need at least a decade till it gets to the point when we can have these stories alongside the mainstream straight ones and a few more till it won’t even matter (or at least I hope so… or I have more faith in the more democratic countries and it’s just wishful thinking)

You posted quite a few times how you feel about your writing and I should have responded every time but I think I only got around to send you a message once when you friend-locked something (maybe the first Tenebrism rewrite scene? I don’t remember) on your LJ. Or the HS AU snippets. (I’ve reread all of them a few times. I wanted to ask you a while now that will you post more of those?)

So confession time! I follow your writing for a little more than 3 years now. So I’m a big time fan of yours actually. When I was first reading L&S I made a big txt file because I wanted to post a big review. Sorry about never posting it.

I found it a few months ago. If I was braver I would send you the file filled with awkward and really enthusiastic comments and guesses about the future plot because I was in-between books and guesses about what certain Isji words meant (occasionally I was right) and all the typos and grammar mistakes because I was reading it 1-3 am and I’m not one of those superhumans who can speak their second language with perfect grammar after midnight. But now that I’m thinking about it it couldn’t be much more embarrassing than this response so maybe in a few years I’ll send it.

Anyway I’m an art theory grad student (aesthetics actually) and I work with YA lit, genre fiction, and animation. So there are moments when I don’t feel too incompetent to say I have some kind of IDK not qualifications but something along the line to actually grasp what is good and what is not in a more professional way. And please trust me a little on this when I say you are a very talented writer. You are insightful, extremely good at worldbuilding and have a great style. Your characters always feel like people, every one of them. Also, you made me do something I’ve only done a few times: you made me check whether Alan and Keyd stay together. I’m one of those people who hate spoilers and not willing to spoil themselves never ever and I just needed to know that they will be alright.

OMG this is embarrassing but I think maybe you need to see this so I’ll just hit the reblog button and hope for the best

14 3 / 2014

thirteenlittlewords said: I'd love to read Rysa's story! I always found her backstory one of the most interesting (and Kir's! but I know you've already started that) and I think it would be a wonderful story to real-publish :) I've done CampNaNo a few times (or at least started a project) and I love the flexibility of it (wordcount goals, choose-your-own-mixed-genre, nonfiction option) And it's rebel-friendly! Next month I'm doing a queer urban fantasy story and a short-ish nonfiction.

teromain:

thirteenlittlewords:

teromain:

I’m really glad there’s interest in her story! And it’s one of the few stories I’ve got that doesn’t seem ridiculous to try and publish. Except that it wouldn’t really have any romance, which is such a big seller apparently.

How do the cabins work for Camp Nano? It keeps wanting me to get a cabin assignment. Is it worth it to sign up with a bunch of randos - I mean does it actually add anything to the experience? I usually do regular NaNo super solo. Good luck on yours!

reblogging because tumblr why can’t you work the way people want you to

So I’ve never been in an active cabin. I always forget to do the cabin assignments in time so maybe the more active participants get their cabins assigned before I even do the settings… I never had any luck with that. It was just a few polite hi where are you from what is your novel about good luck kind of exchanges.

I’ve always done my NaNos mostly solo, but last November I tried participating in my regional community and it was so much of a pleasant surprise, I never expected it. I’m very socially awkward so that’s a small miracle there. I adored the word wars! 5 word wars = daily word goal when you feel unmotivated.

I’d say go for it and hope for the best!

UGH TUMBLR IS A SHITHOLE AND DELETED MY REPLY FUUUUUUUUU. And yeah, it won’t let you reply more than once to the same post, it just continually replaces your answer, but I can see all of them on my dash because Reasons? Tumblr is programmed like a drunk monkey did it.

I’m not very good at social interaction online either, especially regarding writing and being in a group about it - it always feels exactly like group projects at school, either I’m working the hardest to play with everyone or just getting ignored, it always feels like unequal effort and I get disappointed, especially since it’s so hard for me to be outgoing in the first place. I know a lot of people do NaNo for the community and interaction and getting support to finish, but since I’m capable of finishing that much writing on my own I just tend to do it alone.

I know exactly how you feel (I mean not exactly but yeah). I’m the same. That’s why it was so weird for me. After years of lurking I posted once to the main board. I clicked on the live chat and didn’t immediately close the window. A miracle in itself. (I sent an ask to you, another miracle :D)

I know you get super motivated on your own (and I love reading the result!) but personally I get easily discouraged.

BTW re: publishing  I don’t think you should give up on getting L&S “real-published”. LGBT lit will change in a few years. People will get tired of the coming out stories and the interest will shift to genre fiction. The already existing but niche market will widen. The usual coming out stories will stay obviously (because they are important), but the numbers will decrease.

14 3 / 2014

thirteenlittlewords said: I'd love to read Rysa's story! I always found her backstory one of the most interesting (and Kir's! but I know you've already started that) and I think it would be a wonderful story to real-publish :) I've done CampNaNo a few times (or at least started a project) and I love the flexibility of it (wordcount goals, choose-your-own-mixed-genre, nonfiction option) And it's rebel-friendly! Next month I'm doing a queer urban fantasy story and a short-ish nonfiction.

teromain:

I’m really glad there’s interest in her story! And it’s one of the few stories I’ve got that doesn’t seem ridiculous to try and publish. Except that it wouldn’t really have any romance, which is such a big seller apparently.

How do the cabins work for Camp Nano? It keeps wanting me to get a cabin assignment. Is it worth it to sign up with a bunch of randos - I mean does it actually add anything to the experience? I usually do regular NaNo super solo. Good luck on yours!

reblogging because tumblr why can’t you work the way people want you to

So I’ve never been in an active cabin. I always forget to do the cabin assignments in time so maybe the more active participants get their cabins assigned before I even do the settings… I never had any luck with that. It was just a few polite hi where are you from what is your novel about good luck kind of exchanges.

I’ve always done my NaNos mostly solo, but last November I tried participating in my regional community and it was so much of a pleasant surprise, I never expected it. I’m very socially awkward so that’s a small miracle there. I adored the word wars! 5 word wars = daily word goal when you feel unmotivated.

I’d say go for it and hope for the best!

05 3 / 2014

emiello:

I don’t care why I’m queer.

I don’t care why you’re queer (or not).

I don’t care how (if?) our brains cause us to be this way.

I don’t want anyone to research why I’m queer.

If they research it, they’ll find a cause. If they find a cause, they’ll look for a cure.

(via lgbtlaughs)

02 3 / 2014

princessaryastark:

Pre aSoIaF: House Targaryen and the War of Conquest

The War of Conquest was the campaign in which Aegon I conquered Westeros. Supported by his two sisters, their dragons and a small army of soldiers, the Targaryens subdued six of the Seven Kingdoms. Not all the continent had to be taken by conquest, some regions and houses actively supported House Targaryen and others submitted voluntarily.

(via fuckyeahgameofthrones)

28 2 / 2014

btw that class was a mandatory nonsense basics of scientific research class for first-year ph.d students

but it still hurt as fuck

28 2 / 2014

today was a bad day

today was a bad day because in class
I was told that
gay marriage is
an ethical issue in science
alongside
human cloning
animal experiments
nuclear power
GMO
that my being
my entire being
my happiness
my future
is an issue of science
and an ethical one

today was a bad day because
it reminded me
how scared I am
on a daily basis
when I don’t dare
to pretend
I’m strong
and how jealous I am
of people living in countries
more democratic than mine
and how grateful I should be
that we’re not Russia 2.0
yet

28 2 / 2014

A pure world, Sansa thought. I do not belong here. 

(Source: imgonnaeditstuff, via fuckyeahgameofthrones)

28 2 / 2014

"Polite reminder for straight people who say “who cares” when someone comes out: such gestures are addressed to lonely queer kids. not you."

Tweet by Danny Bowes (@moviesbybowes).

I want to retweet and reblog that a million times. (via alliahart)

(Source: vicsackville, via lgbtlaughs)